Am my ear dull?

Isaiah 6:9
He said, "Go and tell this people:
"'Be ever hearing, but never understanding;
be ever seeing, but never perceiving.'
Make the heart of this people calloused;
make their ears dull
and close their eyes.
Otherwise they might see with their eyes,
hear with their ears,
understand with their hearts,
and turn and be healed."

This afternoon, I should focus on finishing works that I have to finish, but I spend almost the whole afternoon watching Buddhism and some BBC channel videos about the history about Jesus. And my heart is not peaceful again. There are two reasons affecting this:

1. The videos about Buddhism. Somehow I can sense the teaching in the video is wrong because I know the truth from the Bible. But, outwardly speaking, it is very similar to the preach in the church. After I watch those videos, somehow I was confused what is the truth. Jesus said he is the truth, he is the way. But Buddhism also says that Buddhism is the truth. I don't know when I became so religious. Although the pastor always said that believing in God is not believing religion, I am definitely just believe a religion now. Satan speaks again in my ear and in my heart, and wants to lead astray of my way. Leave me, Satan! In Jesus name!

2. The other things are the BBC channel videos about Jesus. They describe the historical and many other facts about the early life about Jesus, and link Jesus's life with politics, religious, which is definitely against with what I have been taught in the church. In the series of video, they want to show the scientific aspects about the life about Jesus, and use many hypothesis and evidence to disapprove the deity of Jesus. They definitely know many things about bible, but it seems like they only pick part of the verses from the bible to explain things. If Jesus did all he had done not because He is son of God, then how pity we are as a Christian?

I am of little faith now again. I went to my room to pray to God to show me the truth and help me to regain faith. But I know Satan constantly uses the scientific thinking to rebuke my faith, to defeat me. God, I believe you are the truth of my life, and Jesus is not a plot or lie. Father, show me the truth.

I want to seek the truth. What is the truth in the world? How can I purify my body and my mind? I know I cannot do it by myself, but God can finish all these things. God, I am of little faith now. I pray for the faith! I pray that you do not let me go! I pray that I can be more like Jesus Christ!