The old memory

I have difficult to take a breath now, because all of my old memories float up from the bottom.............

I remembered the time we went to FengHuang; I remembered that I was sleepless for the first time because of you; I remembered that I carry you on my back and you don't want me to do that because you were afraid that I will get tired; I remembered that I can run to Yangzhou to buy you the dolls; I remembered that I cannot stop watching the TV show that you liked a lot; I remembered I searched all your diaries and notes online to try to know you more; I remember we sat beside the river although speechless but still have a lot of fun; I remembered every details now... but all of these just make my heart broken, I want to go back to that time, to my first love.

You are not perfect, my mom don't like you a lot, I don't know why I love you when you ask me that, I don't believe true love before, I don't believe the things happen in the TV show... but after I know you, I began to believe all things, I don't know whether I will get in love with someone else again like how I loved you.

When I listen to the music that we listen to when we were in love, my heart flees back to the time when we listen to them together. Oh, where is that? How could I forget all of that?

speechless............................................. just want to go back to the time :'(