Sorry, Mr. Zach

Dear Brother Zach,

I feel very sorry about my angry expressed last night when we discussed about the the Chinese government and America government.

I thought I was a peace lover and can treat people equally well and do not have nationalism. But from last night, I can see that I am not. Just like when I first became a Christian, I thought I was not sinful at all, but as I know Christ more, the more I realize I am a sinner.

When I was raised up in China, I was taught how western countries robbed our country, and how Japanese conquered China. And I thought that China has 5,000 years' old history, I am proud of that. And America attack Iraq, Iran, and many middle east countries, because it wants the oil there and because maybe it is the plot of America to conquer and control China. I don't know how many people think like me, but I am sure there are many.

But from your mouth, I can see that somehow it is different from what I thought it should be. It really struck me, and make me don't know what is the truth! Are we all live in the lie? All government wants to protect their own authority. Maybe country like America where CNN may criticize the government somehow, but there should be some bottom line that CNN cannot say anything about.

I really want to seek the truth, but we can only listen to the media (like internet, news), but are they reliable?

However, this makes me love God more, because we human being are all sinful, we focus on ourselves, we are in plot, we are angry. We are evil from the bottom! Jesus said brothers should not be angry with each other, but should love each other with Christ's love. Sorry about what I have done! I am still a baby in Christ, I do things in flesh, I do not love God more than myself. May God's Grace be with us forever and ever until the end of the world! Hallelujah!

In Christ,
Wei